zzzzzLess Nights

zzzzzless nights due to :

1) really can't get back to zzzzz when there's too much in the head.
2) got what I've been waiting for......that paper I'd been waiting for hasn't got what I assumed would be there. No..it's not there and that word meant so much of a different. It gets me worried whether I''ll be able to get through this whole thing.

If things doesn't work my way.......the way I wanted it to work, I don't know if I would have another option. Put a bullet in my head..pls.

I think I'm on the verge of a nervous breakdown........total breakdown. I can't withstand this pressure anymore. I can't even cry. I'll have to save those energy to poke a sharp metal into my head.